Tag Of War

I just woke up from a dream.

In the dream I was constantly struggling. And no matter what the other side didn't budge.

Have you ever been engaged in a tag of war battle. And that particular round has like gone on for the longest time. You start thinking of giving up. But at the same time, you look at your opponent. And you cannot see if he/she is going to give up.

What to do? Give up? Live in regret? Or fight on till the end, only to know you have lost. What if there really is hope?

I struggle to wake up and when I did... I discovered how breathless I was... just to decipher between reality and the dream... Damm.

Forgetting You.

I think I have told many of you before... My memory is seriously failing me.

I am scared, I told the educated ah lian. But she told me only when I try to consciously remember it... then I will remember.

But I think I have been trying. And its obvious I cannot remember some stuff.

Damm.

Headache ...

Its 2 days to commencement. Should be excited. But I feel damm moody.

I got this headache. Most likely due to over exhaustion from trying to squeeze an entire week's worth of deprived leisure into the weekend. Thank gosh its the long weekend.

I think the last week was full of action. It was really colourful. Sometimes no matter how tiring work is ... there are some simple joys that make it rewarding. I think I have decided on who I want to be within that space. I shall try to live a happy person. I will learn from my mistakes and take joy in the simplest of gestures.

Thank you Kids, if you all can hear this, you all have guided me in a way that is unconventional. It maybe to soon to decide... but why worry for the future? Life is after all ... short.

For now, as morbid as I was last night..., I see my funeral clearer then anything else. Maybe that is because that is the only event that is certain.