I think we need a bit of an induction program

Hey all!

First, welcome to the new chapter of the blog. This blog is revamped.

As you noticed, or come by to 'apply' for readership, this blog is private and the readership has to be given by me. Why the need to control permissions? Obviously cause of my profession. And yar, my 'ex-roommate' asked me to do so, as the blog has rather subjective pictures of our doings and actions.

Next, I have finally given you guys space to 'comment' on the post. Yes, Geraldine and Laremy, I have considered your point of views... and I realized that commenting on the post makes it a bit more meaningful as it will make the posts more 'subjective' as you guys get to voice out your opinions as well... but please lar, don't ask me am I okie or not on 'emo' post... of cos I am not ok, but you all can express your personal concerns over the 'MSN', 'Phone' or 'FTF' (Face to Face).

Lastly, I cannot change the address of the blog because I think it is a great address. The spelling is the same but the meaning has changed. After all I am totally 'colourless' without you peeps, the friends I need to drag me thru a lonely Saturday, a dull Sunday, my Monday blues, stormy Tuesdays, personal Wednesdays, almost there Thursdays and Happy Fridays. Haha.

Yar so I hope you enjoy your stay. Yar don't be like Xiao Fen, my biggest silent supporter! Xiao Fen and Chongs don't angry k? Haha

A song that got me thinking for a while

I think many people know that I believe we only feel bad when those we love hurt us... or we feel angry or hate a person only if we love that person so.

Yar, I always try to provide that theory. But I was also wondering where I got that idea... should be some movie. But then again, when I was driving just now, I hear a tune by Michael Buble that sung about this theory. It is pretty much true as I always believe.

It got me thinking for a while. Its been close to 3 years, and I still believe you always hurt those you loved the most. And recently this thought and feeling as resurfaced again.

I wonder if I continue thinking this way, will it make me a very hated friend or will it make me a better 'caretaker'. But then again, just enjoy the tune if you have it. It gives you that 60's late night coffee and biscuit feeling. You know ... suddenly I see the world in Black and White. haha.

You always hurt the one you love
The one you shouldn't hurt at all
You always take the sweetest rose
And crush it till the petals fall
You always break the kindest heart
With a hasty word you can't recall
So If I broke your heart last night
It's because I love you most of all

Written by Allan Roberts and Doris Fisher

Thank you Rita. That took the rain away

Just because work keeps you down doesn't mean Monday ultimately suxs.

There are many many funny things that keep you alive.

Like this youtube link from rita!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gGqciSysmsg&feature=related

Rita Rocks!

Broken.

I am not afraid of things I cannot go back to that lie in the past.
I am not afraid of things that I might not be able to change in the future.
I am not afraid of most of the hardships I have to face tomorrow.

But

I am afraid of things that are broken presently.
I am afraid because I don't even know what to do with it.
I know because I am human and I have feelings.

Feelings that tell me my heart is broken and it lies shattered in pain.

21st Feb 2009. I left and I didn't turn back.

The last day of hall is always full of emotions. Too bad when I left, Laremy wasn't there. Hence I had to shift out alone. Here is how the day went...

0930 - Maths Exam. It Sux so I sux...
1200 - Lunch with Jilyn. Finally I had the Tandoori Chicken at hall 16
1230 - Final bubble tea at Gek Poh.
1300 - Final Naxx in Hall
1430 - Naf left with her mum
1600 - Afidah left with her family. Laremy left hall.
1700 - Jilyn left with her family. Naxx ends.
1730 - I started packing
1800 - I started shifting stuff to violet
1915 - I left the key in the Hall Office post box. I drove off for hall.

I often had that feeling of being so alone. But this time it was worst. Maybe its really the final time. Well... at least I documented the whole process... So yar

Throw away the 'Old Things'

Our 'watchdog'


My empty seat by the window

The last stick.

Returning my freedom?

Roommates.

I can't really put into words the whole feeling. But sometimes you become so lonely... It gives you the chills and you feel like you are going to vomit out your lunch? Erm maybe it was me... but I did feel very sick.

I locked my door for the last time... and subconsciously check it time and time again to see if it was locked... My OCD. As I walked away... I wanted to look back. But a voice in me said no... and I didn't turn back.

But on my way back home. I realize something. I miss my personal space. I miss having friends around me. But most of all, I want to move out. I am seriously looking for housemates. Yar. I want to stay with the people I enjoy spending my life with. So yar, that was like the best thought of the day.

Remembering the days in Hall 13.

Its over. Yar, finally I don't stay in hall anymore. I miss hall. I really do. I don't think I want to use words to express so, I will use the best way I express myself. With pictures. I miss hall because...

Its OUR toilet lae...

You get the worst neighbors... who make your everyday bitching life so much better.

The last of Janice's 'Magical Chocolates'

You get to eat chocolate when you feel like making yourself happy.

My last cycle in NTU

You get to cycle on the open road as and when you wanted.

Laremy and the Kirin

You get a chance to have an alcoholic roommate who rocks the socks.

Cheers! The Hippies night.

You get to drink with your buddies when you wanted to.

I don't think this is the last post about hall. One thing is for certain. I know how you felt when you left hall unwillingly.

Once again... Time for a laugh

Series 4 of funny pictures.

Okie some are personal jokes... but yar I hope you laugh.

Wita! Check this out your school!

AV Theatre?
I wonder what movies are being screened...

Impregnable...
Singapore could not conceive before the Japanese came?

Zero fighter planes...
Erm... if no fighter planes came... how did we lose air superiority?

Counter Colonialism?

Please insert here!
Yes I know where to slot my cash card...

Friendship clinic.
Okie... Now I know how serious our society has influenced our social skills...

Fak who?
What a name...

Confuse.
What to you mean?

Wary.
Please watch what you buy from this supermarket...

Stereotype.
Come on! Not all pirates are black right?

Just a funny Picture.

This is a random picture of Danny and me... We thought it was quite funny just to sit on benches and emo... o yar. We are in Azeroth. Danny's the big bull-like tauren to the left... I am the cool looking skeleton to the right... o yar, check out my armour. haha.

Eclod and Archhealer Emoing in Dalaran

Life after 80...

I remember sharing with you all about the other part of me. The wow (World of Warcraft) side about me... to help you recall you can read it here.

Yes, I belong to NUS FASS, probably a fun guild. Not a hardcore raiding guild that does compulsory stuff everyday, raid, farm, power level etc. Yar we are just a normal bench of people hanging out together in Azeroth.

But today is a rather special day... cos on the 15th of Feb 2009 (yes, we didn't stay out on Valentine Day), We, officially cleared every dungeon and raid for this part of The Wrath of the Lich King expansion. Naxx, OS, VOA, Malygos... all downed. In other words... for now, as a guild, we achieved our goal of progression and we reached the end of the game... till the next patch is up!

I know most of you do not understand what I mean... just imagine, when the boss fight was over, people scream into their computers... we cheered and laughed. Yar, for us, a small guild, that only finished Kara, Gruuls and Za in the last expansion, its been the best thing ever.

So life after 80 is over... I have leveled till the maxed... and clear everything needed. It can't be more coincidental that I will start teaching next Monday. Cools huh?

But the truth is, the game continues... because of you, my friends. Playing the game is still worth it because of friends like you, my dear guildies.

So... once again guys... For the Horde!

NUS FASS at Eye of Eternity

Remember those online documents we use to fill up and spam others with?

Remember how we used to receive forms about what your favorite food was? Are you in love? What is your favorite song? Your favorite colour ... yar those type we fill in and send circulate it over and over again...

Yar those simple survey rock cos it informed our friends of who we are? And how it always reminds ourselve of the little individuals we have always been all our lives...

But funny how you only save the copies/replies in your email and oops... you may have lost it or deleted it by accident... and poor you... now you have no records of your friends.

So yar ... I decided to create a list of stuff that you guys really like... so I can remember you and help myself be a better friend... so I can find some sunshine in your gloomiest days...

Yar survey time! Woohoo!

http://spreadsheets.google.com/viewform?key=pEw6l6CoZFo25MHVkaPlvFg

What do I think of Love lately?

Its been very tiring trying to Love everyone so much (YES!!!! ... RITA AND CO. ... NOT IN THE ROMANTIC WAY! haha). I get so burnt out, sometimes I feel like being a lot more selfish and stop being so nice.

Sometimes I find love to be very unfair... actually most of the time... you give a lot yet you receive so little... I cannot really describe it lar, but you get the picture right?

But Love is an amazing thing right? I mean even 'the academy is' sings:

'...To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for? ...'

over and over again. And receiving it often brings a smile to your face, makes that stomachache disappear, make the fears fade away and blar blar blar.

But do you realize love has a spatial and temporal dimension to it? I won't attempt to explain it... but I am sharing something I remembered from a movie entitle 'Nanny McPhee' (2005) ...

"There is something you should understand about the way I work. When you need me but do not want me, then I must stay. When you want me but no longer need me, then I have to go. It's rather sad, really, but there it is."

I remember that because first I felt tired trying to love more... then I whine, ... a few hours later I reflect on it. Following that I realize... the pain/ fatigue from Loving disappears... and it kinds of remind me of the movie... where Aunty McPhee appears, disappears and reappears for the kids she looks after... and time after time, she does not complain or mention about herself... so I decided to 'IMDB' the show, and found the quote that struck me ... If you replaced the words 'i' and 'me' in the earlier extract and replace it with the word 'love':

"There is something you should understand about the way Love work(s). When you need Love but do not want Love, then Love must stay. When you want Love but no longer need Love, then Love (has) to go. It's rather sad, really, but there it is."

you get a clear message what 'love' is trying to convey to us. Amazing right?

I started thinking about love because... I remembered about a love that was so true. Someone who loved me so much and accepted me for who I am and not for how I loved her. It felt a bit sad that the love has been gone and no matter how much I want it back... that love is never coming back.

Don't worry, I am feeling much better already ... after all... I am in search of love again! And this time, I think I will be careful to cheerish it. O yar... along the way, I am just going to love you all, my friends, more.