Sweetness

Even though its an sms, It brightens up my day to know there is someone out there who cares.

Doreen rocks. She really knows how to cheer me up. And she never rejects me before. Amazing.

Thank you for your simple sms.
And thank fate for letting us be friends for 10 years?

Bottom of the trench

I have fallen badly again.

Ooch... its painful.

Not one is to be blamed. I don't blame anyone.
Not even a bit.

I just blame myself.

At the end of the day, I know who will be there.
And I can count on them. They are always there for me.

Bittersweet.

But that is how one gets stronger.

I will still wait to see the rainbow.
For now I will still walk on and find it.

Way back into love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Oh oh oh

Music and lyrics OST

One black hole, and 2 tall friends

Saturdays can be quite painful for me. This is because I seldom plan to go out and have fun nowdays. And I have to go back to school to finish up work. I am a blardee slow worker.

But this Saturday wasn't that painful at all. Thanks to some "Music and Lyrics". And of cause, 3 special human friends... one black hole and 2 tall friends. haha

I over worked myself this week. I did. And now I am suffering from it because I am falling ill. I have a cold and sore throat. But thanks to some XO fishhead beehoon, my throat was a bit better. Haha... must be the XO.

While we were working in the Honours room on our presentations, Xuan delivered some happy food... 'Chubby Hubby' B n J ice cream! Woohoo! Xuan ROCKS! Though I was down with cold, I couldn't be bothered... the Ice Cream was just too tempting.

Well, what would a Saturday night be without supper? So we headed down to my favourite prata place... The Prata Place next to NUS Bukit Timah Campus... and we order only the recommended dishes. Wao Liao shoik lor... haha. But I guess the best thing was... Xuan decided to join us on the Thailand grad trip!!! WooHoo! I can't wait to travel Thailand with them... cause it means we will get a chance to 'nua' together and chit chat till we run out of conversations haha!

I felt like I squeezed a month into 10 days.

I couldn't find time to blog about last week. But I will include certain events into this week's post so I won't forget about it.

I am so tired. Thanks to the Eco paper... i slept only 1.5 hrs between Thursday and Friday. i woke up at 11am on Thursday, slept on Friday 7 am woke up at 830am... finished at 10pm? I was awake for 30 hours or so... stoked. haha

But now that I woken up, I am glad the "week plus" turn out the way it did ... It made me feel like SO MUCH has gone by... I am actually amazed. I really am.

Well, this is going to be an ultra long post... I guess. Lets start.

19th march
Happy Birthday Harriet. I know its isn't the actual day but I am glad we had the gathering at your place , simple and homely... It's you 25th! woohoo! quarter centennial haha. Pal, I am glad we come a long way. Since Sec 3... so that makes it 10 years. I will be there at the silver jubilee. I swear. Thanks for being a truthful adviser and one of my closest companions. Its my Honour... P.S. I would like the guy with the 2 mega pixel camera to send me some photos... You know who you are haha. But wait, you don't read my blog. Haha.

21th March
Labrador Park. Sounds so 'orbit' right? So much so, people don't show any interest to travel there when you mention it to them. But sometimes when your really stressed out and tired, why don't try spending some time with nature? It really helps so much. Just ask a few friends to travel down to Labrador or any other nature park in Singapore. I will bet that it brightens your day and may even give you some inspiration. Jelena and Eng Hwee, thanks for coming along with me, I wouldn't have enjoyed the ice cream and sunset alone. O yar, Eng Hwee welcome to world of sambal sotong ... haha

22nd March
My last movie on a weekend ... that costs me 9.50SGD will be "vantage point". Movies on the weekend now officially cost 10SGD... Yar no big blockbuster, just a last min random movie outing with 2 great pals. The movie concept is good... but a bit too overkill... casting needs some help as well.. But great race scene. Yet no matter where, G and J will always make me laugh and disturb me. Its great to know I have 2 pals to ask out on the weekend. That feeling Rocks!

23rd March
The season is over. Yes, we seemingly handed the chance to be premiership champions over to the Red side of Manchester. There is still a mathematical chance... But all we can do now is pray and curse that the Devils and Blues slip and fall... haha. O yar, Mr and Mrs Quek, thanks for hosting us, it made the boring weekend brighter. Ms Oon, don't be overly depress, I kind of understand how you felt. We got next year. Argh...

24th March
Uncle Tony, I bought you 2 cans of beer. Yet you ask me to drink the Sangiko Coconut Juice again. haha. O yar, It was fun working at the community gardens. I enjoyed it. If any of you really want to try gardening out, the community gardens are ideal. You not only learn the proper techniques but you get to know more about your neighbor. Trust me, grassroot organizations aren't all elites and scary. O yar, I am proud of Si Hum, haha at least Talia and Victor for remembering to 'jio' for dinner. haha

25th March
One of the worst days of my life. OED finally sentenced us... to a warning letter and 200 dollars. well... I had a miscommunication and argument with my friends over that damm matter as well. To top it up, I got a 'summon' from some carpark attendant. Thanks yar, the only time I forgot to put a parking coupon you smack me a fine. Thanks for ending my bad day with that 'fine'. But it isn't all that bad a day, if you had your 2 great pals asking you not to be gloomy ... then when you finally make some noise they ask you shut up... what the fark you want from me? haha. But really thanks for being nicer to me. Ice Cream rocks, but friends beat that anytime. And yes, Ms Lee, thank you for the tickets to Maroon 5. And welcome to the club... the exclusive club which allows you to disturb Leon yet he won't retaliate... haha I think 3 bad events really break the chain of bad luck. My luck did changed a bit.

27th March
Thursday. Day before 'Eco Dooms day'. We went to watch Nathan perform. Yar another event to relax... before we get our heads sent to the chopping board. I kind of like the idea of creating a musical with the idea of voicing out for those who are mentally impaired. The musical was a good way to tell the masses why we should learn to accept members with mental impairment as one of us. I totally support that. O yar, Joey and Xuan, sitting next to both of you rocks... cause your stupid jokes and comments make me feel so much better after a stressful week with work. And of cause, my (in)famous line: "I will give her 'Her-penis'???" haha.

O yar 'Rock' thanks for remembering. That was one of the best moments of the week. It really made me smile inside. Even though I wasn't smiling much on the outside. Thanks.

28th March
I manage to salvage my Eco paper even after changing my topic at 2 am... Guoyong's attitude to change his paper in the morning kept ringing in my head... So I decide to do the same. If your paper isn't right somewhere... change it. haha.

Well, when you are desperate and tired... you really feel that words and support from a friend goes a long way. What better if you have your class to watch your back. Thanks to those who encouraged me to work harder for the paper. Within those bitter moments... I really felt very relief to know that there are people watching my back. Thanks for dinner as well, I was just happy to be there, it felt as though nothing in the world mattered. Just for that moment. haha. O yar, Mr D, I hope your better, don't worry pal, from your expression I know you tried your best and you really wanted to do well, but it isn't totally your fault dude. We are proud of you, Rocker from Nepal! haha. And yes how can I forgot beer at East Coast. Beer Rocks. Especially when you find 2 idiots who don't mind talking trash with you at any point. Oon and Joey, You 2 two owe me 2 rounds the next time we drink. Hopefully it comes soon lar...

I was so tired from the lack of sleep, I felt like fainting after dinner. Well, I am glad its over and that I could have time to blog about the ten days which I felt 'squeezed' ... Its back to work soon. I hope i get to blog again. And that I get a fulfilling next week as well.

You got to tell me what you really want

All of you know I aint very bright, and I ain't sharp enough to catch hints.

I heard from a friend today that your still stuck. If he didn't tell me that, I wouldn't know.

I would like to help but I need you to tell me if you need my help. Well, if I know you well enough, you probably won't even ask for help.

But I just want to tell you, Good luck friend, I will always be here.

In search of a rainbow

I was told of a place where a beautiful rainbow would appear once in a long while.

Yet, to get to that place, you have to travel a long distance, over many hills and may even take countless of hours.

I was apprehensive at first because of tough journey, time and effort. But the thought of seeing the rainbow excited me. The accomplishment of the task enticed me even more. The thought of the rainbow made me smile.

So I decided to take the risk.

Now I stand at that place but I see no rainbow. This isn't the first time on the journey, I have been trying my luck for many times. But I haven't seen the rainbow.

I don't really know what to do. In fact I am getting a bit lost on this journey. I guess I just have to keep motivated. Until someone comes by and tell me that the journey isn't worth it. Or maybe someone will tell me, the rainbow does exist. You just have to wait and try even longer.

Missing

Something is missing in my heart. I hope I find it when I wake up tomorrow.

Reconnected

I feel reconnected to life. Reconnected in a way that I see that life is about friends and leisure... not about results and assignments.

Well, begun to feel this need to plan out leisure instead of planning our work most of the time. I meant, not many people really plan their leisure ahead of their work right? Work is important, I totally agree... but I am starting to believe leisure should never be second place... I can't really explain it but Adrc sort of pieced up the complete story while he was telling the class how we should not forget the beautiful world we live in. While we are all busy, we should always take some time off to appreciate the work we live in before we look back and regret missing it all for some stupid stack of paper.

Now I stand at the end of my university life... and I look back at my assignments, I can't remember much of the past. But I will remember the times when I did practical fieldwork. Because, of the contact and connections that I made from interviews... Maybe I choose to do primary ISM research for a reason. Maybe the changing of the ISM topic was fated. I never will know these answers. But I am glad that happened. Because of the valuable lessons I learned outside of the classroom. See... when you put leisure (in this case my love for nature) together or ahead of work... you actually led a more fulfilling and memorable life. haha.

Sour Grapes, Mr Yang and Uncle Tony

I think sometime back I talked about my 'stake out' operations at the community gardens. Well, most of the stake outs were not even successful, I was faced with problems such as slow replies from the local administration, imperfect information (I was given wrong timings that the gardeners will be at the gardens) and even the occasional "no,no... I don't want to be interviewed" attitudes from fellow countrymen.

But perseverance really pays off. After four days of waiting, I manage to meet the 2 gardeners. Well, I am going to tell you the story of Mr Yang and Uncle Tony.

I interviewed the grassroot organization near my home... I think I shouldn't mention which one... haha, I did the interview before Chinese new year... some where around the 4th of Feb... well they told me they would help me contact the local gardener after Chinese New Year ... well, 1 week, 2 weeks, 3 weeks, Mulu trip, another few weeks. Then last Tuesday, I picked up the phone, dial up the secretary and yes! I got my target man number one... Mr Yang

Now for the other suspect... the Ghim Moh gardener. Please, I was about to give up after waiting for four days. While waiting for him on the fourth day, I decided to write a note for the gardener. Well as I was trying my best to translate my message in Chinese (if you want a laugh, call me, I will tell you what sort of standard my written Chinese is, haha)... I heard a 'click' sound. I thought someone opened the lock to the garden fence... I looked up and there he was, Uncle Tony, senior citizen of the year, Ulu Pandan, not sure which year still... haha. I could suddenly hear "vindicated" ringing my head ...

Well thats how I got to know both my key interviewees. From the moment I embarked on this journey to search for them, to the moment I tried natural sour grapes of Singapore, till today when I worked with Uncle Tony at the Garden, it has only been 2 weeks. But honestly, a lot has happen. I feel a big change in me. Many of my preconceptions of elderly in Singapore have changed (like how elderly are actually rather friendly and not all of them refuse to learn from the youths).

I am glad I met the 2 of them. Perhaps because I lost communication with my grandparents earlier on and that I have lost the means to communicate in dialect with the elderly, I always felt very distant from the elderly. I guess that has been a big lost of me.

I don't know if you two will ever see this, or if I will personally tell you both but thank you Mr Yang and Uncle Tony, I am finally able to connect with the elderly again. Thank you both for reteaching me something I know as 'community'. Thank you for listening to me. If I learned anything from you two, it would be 'respect'.

I look forward to beer with you in the "beer garden" on Mondays.

no matter, if your heart is true

That was my neighbor's advice to me. I think Wongs understands me rather well. According to her, its my honor to have her as a neighbor... haha

Last Wednesday, I did a house visit on my neighbor. Haha, I should not really say this but according to Cheri (Carol's sis), Carol was frantic when I proposed a last min house visit. Haha.

Well, that was my first ever visit to a neighbor's home, a neighbor who is my friend. The rest of my neighbors are my parent's friends haha. Her house is damm big for a 5 room flat k? What made it better was Wongs actually baked chocolate cookies. They were not the best in the world, but they rock lor, I wanted to eat more but Paiseh. haha.

I guess the best part of the visit was I got to spend time with my neighbor. I haven't been actually free to spend time with anyone other then my classmates. But the good times are ending soon. Wongs would be moving soon. Now all I can do is hope she manages to shift somewhere closer to me.

Cookie Monster!

Symbols of everyday life

This is going to be a happy post. I promise.

Lately, I have been trying to stalk a particular gardener. The old man whom I know as Ghim Moh's senior citizen of the year. I am not too sure which year though.

This morning was the worst of the stake outs because I was walking through Ghim Moh market, desperately trying to locate and identify this old man. The problem is, Ghim Moh is an aged community, everyone looked like him. Damm. haha

Well, as I ended my fruitless search, I realized something... something I call creativity

HELP!

I used my camera phone to snap the shot. Well it made me flip through my pictures directory. While I was looking through the pictures, I spotted many other funny pictures. So I decided to share them with you. By the way, I admit the camera phone is a great invention. It makes me feel normal cause most of the time I shoot with a DSLR which people will take extra notice. Normal cameras can take great pictures too.

Thief!
The Easter Egg was broken into at te supermarket

UNG DRILL
Ungs! Your guys are famous!

Supervision within a cage
There is no need for supervision because only senior citizens and children use the premises. So who would supervise them? haha

Something sad to make you feel better.

Goodbye To Love - The Carpenters

I'll say goodbye to love
No one ever cared if I should live or die
Time and time again the chance for love has passed me by
And all I know of love is how to live without it
I just can't seem to find it

So I've made my mind up
I must live my life alone
And though it's not the easy way
I guess I've always know

I'd say goodbye to love
There are no tomorrows for this heart of mine
Surely time will lose these bitter memories
And I'll find that there is someone to believe in
And to live for something I could live for

All the years of useless search
Have finally reached an end
Loneliness and empty days will be my only friend
From this day love is forgotten
I'll go on as best I can

What lies in the future is a mystery to us all
No one can predict the wheel of fortune as it falls
There may come a time when I will see that I've been wrong
But for now this is my song
And it's goodbye to love
I'll say goodbye to love

P.S. I refuse to believe in the lyrics

Tired once more.

I am tired.

I feel like maintaining 'radio silence'.
I feel like running away from a lot of stuff.
But I will still pick up the phone if you need me.
I will still be there waiting for complains, grunts or favors.

Friendship is what keeps me going on.
That I do not doubt.

Thanks...

To those suffering the 'academic fever' around me, for the company and lunch today
To Debs and Serene, thanks for being today's victims. That was the first laugh of today.
To Junhao, for the logistical help for my ISM
To Harvey, Sir, I guess I never will get a better and more suitable supervisor
To Joey, thanks for being a buddy when I was down

The Great Stakeout

I attempted a stakeout to day.
I tried to 'stalk' the gardeners at Ghim Moh Community Garden for my ISM research.

Yes I waited for the gardener to appear from 1530. I waited and waited till 1910.

While I was waiting for him/her, I walked to the RC and CC about 3 times. I don't understand why the RC didn't open. Haha. What was worst, was that I conveniently forgotten to bring along my ipod or a textbook to read while I waited for the gardener.

I think our society has an enormous problem. The residents refuse to talk to students and researchers who need their interviews. One of my 'possible target' interviewees even thought I was working for the ministry after I showed him my matric card. O man. What is wrong with them?

The day wasn't so fantastic. But it wasn't boring. Thanks to Chomsky. When all seemed so boring and heading towards a fruitless day, Chomsky picked up my calls of help and agreed to dinner with me. Thanks Chomsky, for being such a great classmate. You rock BIG TIME k!

Thank you for a wonderful night, last night.

This post is for Eng Hwee.

Two nights ago, I spent a night with Eng Hwee, in the honours room.
It was quiet a sweet experience. haha.
Please lar you really think that way mare? haha.

Anyway, guess what is this (the blue this to the left of the pencil case)?


A clue from Eng Hwee: "It is a bit Small..."

You all need to work harder on your work

This post is a response to my classmates who replied to my nick on 160308 at 2310~2320.

Deborah was the first person to respond to my nick (Why is almost the entire honours class online tonight?). The second was Jilyn.

It was an experiment I setup to see who has time to read individual MSN nicks. You all obviously have too much time to check individual nicks. haha.

Update: Rita became the 3rd person to reply, but she replied the next day, 13 hours later. haha

Home: Mixed feelings

Definitions of a Home are often contested. Without a doubt, different people have different ideals and ideas of Home. Recently my definition of Home has changed. I can feel/sense that for myself.

I stay in Lorong Ah Soo. At least my NRIC reports that. Yet, recently, most of the time, I stay, live and sleep over in school. Home becomes a place with mixed feelings.

I go home twice a week. On Tuesdays and Saturdays. I use to think that home is a place I would run to if I had problems or when I went I needed to see my parents and siblings. But that has changed.

I went home on Friday this week. Yet, when I was back home, I wasn't at peace. I kept thinking about my ISM and Assignments. I can't finish up work at home because I would fidget around, fiddle with my things and waste my time lazying in my room. I could only used my time efficiently to study when I am in School.

This weekend I didn't want to stay at home. I constantly wanted to go back to school. I hate that feeling. That feeling where you want to finish your work yet you know you cannot accomplish within the place you are in.

I decided to return to school on Saturday evening. I felt I had to run away from home. Run away from the place I would usually run to. That is the change. Because of my assignments, home becomes a place which I voluntary run away from. I hate my assignment based lifestyle. I hope my family members understand. I miss them but I cannot afford time with them because the assignments are 'destroying' me slowly.

I wished I haven't been too grumpy.
I wished I could relax at home soon.
I wished my home would be the place I run to. Again.
I know this would end soon. Hopefully.

Good Morning. My bedroom view.
An everyday picture of Hope.

You.

I had lunch with my classmates yesterday. We chatted about our own past.

We talked about relationships. Good and bad. Past and Present.
Then Sarah asked me: "How do you know when you have moved on?"

I replied: "When you wake up in the morning, thinking of someone else."

And I have moved on. This time it is real. Because this morning when I woke up, I thought of you. It has been like this for a while a ready.

For now, I will continue to leave the unsaid, unspoken. Those eyes wide shut, unopened. I will continue to remain between the lines.

I decided to take my time and wait for you here. I know good things are worth waiting for. And I know you are worth it. Because, you bring so much hope to me and you take away the pain. You really do.

When you spend too much time with someone.

Ever wondered what happens if you spend too much time with someone?

Haha.

Guess it isn't too difficult to explain right?

Well try explaining this.

"We are the only two people in the honours class that see each other for more then 24 hours at a stretch"

Damm gay right?

I am only human and I am glad you are behind me

I don't hide myself. I can't do it. Most of you should know that. I don't hide my emotions. Not entirely because I want to tell you. But because I just cannot fool you and fool myself. I don't like to lie.That is who I am. If you think otherwise. You probably misunderstood me.

We played the lecturers on monday. We lost. 2 - 3. Yar the whole world probably be going... how did you lose to a group of oldies. Well, come play with us one day and if you lose. Ask yourself how did you lost to a group who lost to a group of oldies? We trained hard. But they had good players. Trust me on that.

That isn't the point. The point is, the match only made me closer to my class. It did. Because I know my back is well covered. Thanks guys. I will remember that day we fought in the rain, the entire class as one.

An email to my dear friends

2 – 3. that’s the final score.
We Lost. That was yesterday.

Yet as I woke up this morning, I never felt that I lost anything but a damm fun and enjoyable match. The score line does not reflect anything. But your character and your friends do. They really do. And everyone in the honours class deserves to be applauded for that, those on the pitch, off the pitch and those morally with us. Yesterday you all cheered for us, we all fought for you. It has always been like that in many ways. People looking after one another in this class.

As I stood on the field, I am happy that you folks were there. As players, I guess we were proud of our supporters because from kick off to full time, you all have always been by the sideline, in the rain. Those away probably were worried for us, some even sms for live score update. At first I didn’t realize because I was obviously too sucked into the game. Gan told me that and then I realize that we were winners, regardless if we won or lost.

To my mates, this is probably not the best team in the world. Or even considered a strong team based on the final score. But this is a team I will remember for life.

Dawa, our Mr incredible, who would ‘swoosh’ past defenders. Elis, the one who has never missed a training, I saw her grow, and grow she did for the team. Jon. The ever wise ‘uncle’ on the field, always caring for others in his ‘silent’ mode. Tracy, the capable captain with the smile that melt my sore heart after the game.

Eng hwee and Yikang, the powerhouses on the field that closed down the opposition so fast when need. Do you know? Because of your individual characters, I always feel safest when I pass the balls to you both.

Adrc, Chun Hao and Faisal. Thanks for being there with us when we took the bullets. I know you guys might feel you have the lack of training and experience. But it is your heart that fuels the team. You all took your respective roles when you all were assigned to, without complaining. For that I respect you.

Lastly, to my back four and the man between the sticks. Mr reliable, adrain Q, on the field, I will follow you to war anytime. Hong yi, the bravest defender of the day. Ganners, captain marvel, I would not trade a win for your beautiful priceless moment. And chongs, I know you would prefer to attack, but thanks for sacrificing yourself. It made me feel so much more secure to know you all were behind.

I am a dwarf when I stand next to you. You guys held me thru the match. I know I played badly because I didn’t cover my role well enough. Thank you for standing behind me. I am sorry I let you guys down.

Last year, I was also a loser. I lost because it was a friendly. But yesterday, I am a loser not because I lost a match. But because there are many times, I could have done better. On the pitch and off the pitch.

But I know, we were the winners. The match is just an event, 10^th march was just the time and the SRC was just a space. Sometime down the line, we won’t be bothered with this match. Because we will remember the spirit of our class the best. That spirit that brace everyone through tough times. That feeling on the field (and in class) knowing that your not alone. Your not 11 men strong. Your 45 members strong. Not only strong but perhaps the best I ever had.

If I had to cry, it would because this feeling would end soon. In mulu, some people told me that you cannot win everything, you cannot ensure that everything goes right. You cannot save everyone in the world. I believe that now. Because some things in life are more valuable then others. Some things in life are worth giving up for. And I cry today, because of this soccer team, yesterday’s supporters, our honours class and my friends are those things that matter to me today. It has been like this for a long time. I hope it remains this way for an even longer time.

Rgds
Leon
Caretaker
One World. One Life.

Goodbye to the World Of Warcraft for now.

I just suspended my World of Warcraft account. haha. yar. I did it.

But what was amazing is... My previous subcription was suppose to last me till 11th march 2008, 5:20 PST.

I cancelled my subcription on 11th march 2008, 4:39 PST.

Somethings in life are meant to be. This is one example. haha

I waited 7 months for tomorrow

Tomorrow is the big match, the geographical challenge. I am feeling like rojak inside. I don't know why. I guess the email below will best explain my feelings

Dear teammates,
I am nervous. I am tired and a bit stressed. Why? Cause I don’t want to lose a second time to the ‘oldies’.

Ironically, I am hopeful and excited as well. Why? Cause I have a team which I proudly believe is much better then that of last year’s honours batch.

When I think about tomorrow, I will look back into the past to bring me peace. Weird right? Why do I adopt such a ‘strategy’? Because when I look back, I remember how much we have grown together. As a team. And more importantly, as friends.

Remember the first session? When it was raining, we wanted to abandon that session but Dawa and Hong Yi picked up the ball and played soccer in the rain. Remember the second session? Those who were early were rather disappointed to see the poor turn out, but as the others slowly came in for training, our spirit changed. Remember the first time we played on the field? That experience was so different, it was tiring, but nowadays, we never looked back to play on the court.

Sorry for being an ‘emo’. I am just happy to be in this team of friends. So for tomorrow, lets do our best, play the way we are used to… as a team of friends. Long Live ‘Football Fun Fridays!

Rgds Leon Tan, 'Caretaker'

I hope I can sleep tonight. I hope we win. But most of all, that the fun never ends.

Part of the team

Tired...

I am tired.

Tired of many things.

Tired because I can't get to sleep properly.
Tired because I have a hill to climb.
Tired because I don't even have the time to blog about what is happening around me.

I must try to find out what is wrong with me soon. I don't know how long I can 'fight on' before I explode.

Despite this constant 'uneasy' feeling and physical fatigue, the past week has been exciting. So much has happen that pushes me to excel forward.

For now, the 'angels' beside me are guiding me. I believe that is the best remedy I can ask for.

Ai Chen's Message

I have a very sweet classmate called Ai Chen.

In many ways, she is like an auntie. But this auntie is magical cause she always seems happy and cheerful about stuffies. While she maybe serious at work but she can be playful as well. Below is an example. Despite my 'unfriendliness' and 'evil actions' towards your friend, I want to thank you (Ai Chen) for being nice to me.

Ai Chen's Message

"Harlow Leon!!!

Guess who? Greetings from a non-mac user.. your mac so hard to use that I had difficulties even opening something to drop a note. LOL

Why u all leave hons room.. was hoping got pple to talk rubbish with me HAHA

This is what happens when someone is very sian of thesis.

Bleargh."

Back from Ulu Mulu

I am back. There is so much I wanna say. But I just can't tell it at the moment.

But I guess the most important message to say for now is
"I found my heart in Mulu"

Finally, I am ready to move on. I think this time it is right.

Thank you for the lovely times - I miss you all dearly