It was raining and there were no cabs ... what to do?

Disappointed, irritated, annoyed, angry, self-realization then regret. I believe that is a simple cycle of a negative incident. Well it happened all to me today ... when i realized my brother took the keys to the car just before i left home for work.

Damm... the first thought that came to mind was how am i going to reach work on time with public transport at that moment. I was going to be late for the first time since i made an effort to be on time for work. Naturally i got damm irritated and annoyed with the culprit behind the 'theft' of the car keys, my brother. In a moment of anger, i called and sms my brother to declare 'war' because of his irresponsible actions. But once i reach the work place late ... i started to think "S***, was all those arguments necessary?" That made me felt bad about it. I really felt shitty the whole day for arguing with him over such a cork matter. Worse, he was nice enough to pass me the car keys in orchard.

I think this is how my older brother and I communicate ... mostly in negative terms and 'offensive' undertones for the past few years. I know that I always been the 'open troublemaker' between both of us... I never let him off whenever i have a chance to get back at him. After being so hostile towards each others these couple of years... I start to think... is it actually worth it? I mean, is there another way i can communicate with my brother?

Leonard is a great brother and slowly I am learning to accept him again. I think he has done the nicest things for Leonora and me. I wish he could have higher EQ at moments but slowly i think i need to coordinate with his actions in order to make things work. I think we are in a much better stage then a year ago. At least we haven't openly express unhappiness about each other or quarreled this year. I really think its time I try to communicate with my brother effectively before it is too late and we never get the chance to accept one another in the future.

I don't want an enemy in my own home. I think i should start being nice to my brother. After all, he is my only brother who has help me through the years. I think i need to learn to be a better brother and learn to be less anal about stuff.