If this are questions you all want know, I am still suffering inside and I thank you for your concerns. But I want to be alone or simply with a small group of friends i like hanging out with people such as Chocobos, Charz, Ivan, Gina, Becks, Jared and Huishi. I am sorry for my retarded mannerism but I am suffering inside still.
Well today i had a fun day... mainly because i met up with Becks and Gerald for ice cream and later on Ivan, Gina and Charz for supper. I think these are people who know I am down and try not to poke me too much about it. I thank you guys lots and you all rock k?
Well there is a sight comment though... Ivan is damm high and noisy today... he is like... terrible k (haha obviously i am joking), he had to be so noisy he disturbed a couple's private moment... but i guess that is the sort of fun i need now. True friends entertain you all the way. And i believe Ivan is one of those more understanding friends i have now.
I am not trying to be an enemy to anyone these days. I just need my friends to be understanding. I am sorry if i seem to left you guys for a moment but believe i am trying my best to recover.
I know i am a disappointment in many ways that i do not attend the birthday parties or what, I just can't bring myself to be happy. Charz, for this i apologize because you are the one that is always willing to ask me despite my retarded replies... one day, i promise i will say yes. i wish i can say yes now but i don't think i want to be in a big group now days. I just like it the way it was today - You, Ivan, Gina and me (i don't mind 1 or 2 more but a big group will just make me feel like S***)
Yar ... this is how i felt today, Mixed feelings but over all i am happy, thanks to you friends.
"i am quiet but i am not gone. Just lost for these moments. I promise I will be back"
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